"Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses." Hebrews 11:1
Today would have been Holly's 15th birthday, and it marks the date one year ago when she exited surgery and began her battle. The things I hoped for her were countless - happiness, health, long-life, success, friends, love, marriage, children, peace. I wanted those things here with me, but I strive to reconcile with reality and rest in faith that she has those things now in Heaven, and what she doesn't have she is not in want of - she is complete; she IS happy, at peace, joyful, radiant.
My hope has shifted. I hope she knows how loved she was and is, how beautiful she was inside and out, how proud we always were of her and continue to be. I hope I was enough as her "earthly mom." I hope I will be enough here to join her and see her again in glory there.
Happy birthday baby.